NOVEMBER. In every season, I know YOU love me

Then sings my soul, my Saviour God to Thee: "How Great Thou Art"

As the seasons change, as time flies, more than ever, I feel that every second counts and everyday is an opportunity to overcome this concept of "more than words". However, I also find myself wasting resources, the spoiler -that I have become, expects more while gives less. God has granted me blessings and how little I am thankful to Him. But every time I look back, I see that I owe Him everything though. I used to say that if  grace is an ocean, I am sinking... deep, and yes, it's still a fact. I even have the feeling that I am sinking deeper as day goes by. I am not perfect, I pity myself at times... and I bow before God in amazement because He still extends His mercy on me and spares my life. I thank Him for loving me, for caring for me, despite all my weaknesses and the sins from which I have repented but still repeat. I need God and I absolutely acknowledge it, but sometimes, I feel like hiding myself behind pretention of wanting more of Him and then, being struck with failure and tossed away, me with my self-efforts. It became an habit for me to switch from one promise of commitment to spend more time with Him to a forgetful mind distracted by wordly things that cannot satisfy. So, here I am, stuck in the middle of needing God every hour and wanting God, desiring to get closer to Him. Well... This is hard to explain but I know that God knows exactly what I mean. He is the only one who can read upon my heart, inside and out. God is a Good good Father who stills wants me in all my weaknesses and failures, and he will still say "I do". Yes he loves me, unconditionally, although I don't love Him back with all my heart...

God created us and kept us only because He wanted us, and still wants us in all our flaws and  failures—He does not need us. That is true love my friends.God loves each and every one of us, and simply desires us to love Him, but out of want and desire to love Him back as well.  A reciprocal relationship of true love. 

WM