FEBRUARY. Time to adjust my focus.
This month,
I had few struggles and hardships with my dear past... I guess, dealing with the past is never a one-time task, neither a year-of-letting-go and then, the chapter is over. At some unexpected time, the past comes around, displaying everything that has been, everything that could have been, etc...
Funny it is, all the lessons at my Bible study seemed to be related to my story. The Israelites complained after Moses, they missed the oinons of Egypt and the sweet taste of life there... but they obviously forgot all the things that made them slaves there and that God had redeemed them from, that God had saved them from, that God has freed them from. Crazy it is, it is also real with my life. When looking at the story, i'm telling myself how can it be possible to be so short-minded?! Actually, it is always easy to criticize people's failures but when it's up to you, you do the same, you act the same way...
So, Egypt called me again. From time to time, I acknowledge that I looked back, I missed some stuffs left behind, moments there in the past, pictures of the beautiful parts of that life, etc. But, the more I think about it, the more I see that I am just missing the feeling of love. Then, I begin to slip in the thought that God is waiting too long to get me to the Promised Land, although He knows that I have been "patient"enough to not settle for less because I don't want to miss His best, the Mr Right. It has been years now that I see to walk in the wilderness, and all this time, I am longing to see the Promised Land. But, through all these struggles, I thank Him for always being good and incredibly patient toward me. For keeping me in His sight. For still instructing me, helping me to believe in Him more and more, to count on Him alone when everything around me is falling apart and when people are so disappointing. I especially thank Him for being the Unchangeable loving God and Father <3
Therefore, at the end of this 2nd month of 2015, I would like to remind myself of these 3 characters of GOD:
God is FAITHFUL to His word, may I always trust in Him without wavering and ending by doing silly things that would spoil His plans for my future.
God is GOOD and He will never withhold something from me if I really need it. I know He just longs to get closer to me, so that I can make Him the real First in my life/love/mind.
God is ABLE to do what He already promised to do, and He can even do things that surpasses my own desires. Cqfd when looking back to 2014!!
The best is yet to come
I have the feeling that this 2015 would be a lovely year ^_^
Love YOU LORD <3
